I got engaged <3

My heart is still exploding!!

I’m currently sitting on a flight heading to St. Barth for the first time and I’m so excited to sit down and give you guys all the details of my engagement! I cannot believe I’m even saying these words!!!! Does anyone else feel extra chatty and productive on planes? If I get the proper setup (key ingredient being a matcha in hand) I find that I can really get into my flow. Sooo, welcome to my plane chat! The proposal happened on Friday and I have to say that I have been a complete puddle of excitement and joy and disbelief since then.

I put a question box on IG the other day, so I’m keeping all of the (many!) questions you all asked in mind as I write this. But I think it’s important to start this story by sharing that last year right around this time I was really going through it. I had just gone through a major breakup, I had ended a business partnership and moved into a new apartment on my own. I was both excited for the future, but also, candidly, terrified about being 31 and single. I also knew I had some work to do on myself. I had started dating again, wasn’t feeling particularly inspired by anyone, and was allowing some toxicity to impact me more than I’d like to admit.

Right around that time, I had a call with a psychic (who I refer to a lot on the pod) — her name is Jamie and, as it turns out, she is incredible. Because on that call I had been asking her about a guy I had been on a few dates with who had kind of gone dark on me. She responded by telling me that he wasn’t the one and that in a year I’d be engaged to the love of my life. She described him, very specifically, and told me I wouldn’t meet him on the apps, but that he’d approach me and my girlfriends while we were out sometime in the early summer. And you guys….. it all happened exactly as she said. Exactly. You literally cannot make this shit up!

So as for how Clayton and I met. We’d known of each other for years. Similar social circles, but we hadn’t ever properly interacted. And then, this summer, a close friend of ours connected us while we were out one night. And even though we only chatted for maybe 20 minutes, I literally could not sleep that night I was so excited about him (and I’m not necessarily easily excitable when it comes to men). Two days later, I went to review a small Pilates studio for the first time. I’m doing my thing, recording little videos of the studio before class starts, and I see Clayton walk into the studio. I was… completely shook (and deeply regretful of my outfit choice). I’ve always believed that the universe nudges us and puts us in the right place for the right things, but this really made me double down on that universal faith. He and I started going on walks, grabbing matcha, really getting to know each other. It’s funny, because we never really had a first date. Externally, we were moving slowly, but internally, we were moving quickly because we both knew right away that we were it for each other. I was traveling a lot during the summer, so we FaceTimed for hours and hours and hours. Sometimes 5 hours at a time. My friends and I joked all summer that I had the love flu — I was absolutely gushing over this man. And, not in a butterflies way — I always felt safe. There was never a question, and that’s something that I’m so grateful for (as is my nervous system). When I came back from Ibiza towards the end of summer, he and I were totally attached hip and things moved quickly.

We had the most beautiful, romantic, love-filled summer just keeping to ourselves in Amagansett

Fast forward to March, and I both felt like I had no idea when we’d get engaged, and also that it was coming — that it would never be something I’d have to push for. There’s a theme here — and it’s something I’ve so deeply needed — that with Clay I’ve had so much trust in him every step of the way. So last Friday, he and I were planning to go out to the new beach house he had just bought. The old owner had finally moved out, and this would be the first time we’d be in there, together, with it emptied and ours. When we woke up that day, Clayton asked me what my perfect day would look like and I described it — grabbing matcha in the city, a Carissa’s salmon bowl on the way out east, a beach walk with the sun out and then heading into the new house. I clearly did not see this coming because I tried to wear a literal groutfit in the car and Clayton kindly guided me into a pair of jeans and a sweater.

this was minutes before!!!

We did all the perfect day things, the sun was shining, and before walking into the house we took a moment to pause on the doorstep. Clay asked me to envision our future in the house, and told me that our lives were going to change when we walked inside. I still wasn’t clocking what was happening, and even upon walking in to a flower-filled living room, I still didn’t realize. He asked me to open the sliding door so we could see the ocean and when I turned around he was on one knee. You guys, I still cannot believe this!! I’m so glad he snuck a phone on the ground to record all of it because I completely blacked out from happiness and excitement. It was truly the most special moment. And I am so so so happy that it was just the two of us. No photographer, no family, no friends. That was so important to me, and he completely nailed it.

So I received lots of questions on the ring — I cannot believe she’s mine!!! We never went shopping together or talked about the details of this. Early on, he had casually asked what kind of ring I’d want. I told him a very thin gold band with a pear diamond and that was that. Clayton has impeccable taste, so I knew I could sit back and trust the process on this.

It feels SO good to share all of this. Not only because I am getting married (!!!!!) but because I’ve kept this relationship very private for a long time. I’m not sure where and how it’ll fall into my content given this isn’t a dating/relationship podcast or Substack, but either way, I’m grateful to have you all on this journey with me. Especially those of you who are in your 30’s and going through it — whether that’s a breakup, dealing with someone who won’t commit or just feeling exhausted by the dating process. I GET IT, and I will share more on my manifestation practices and the self work that I did to get here on the podcast, because I truly believe you attract people at the level you view yourself.

I have been completely blown away by the love, support & kind messages from you all… it makes me emotional to see and feel how much people love love.

xxxxx

Eliz